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real talk wanna read something weird and sort of uncomfortable but interesting? cool. jen mo is doing this Death class and she asked me to write about a kind of death that i've experienced so we decided that i would do "becoming a mother". look out. The moment that I realized that something was alive inside of me was the moment that I became consumed with death. My body, previously small and compact and efficient, began to swell and contort like the bloating of a corpse. Every few weeks I would spread my legs for a man who had no real interest in me. He was only interested in this person deep within me whom I had never met. My appetites, which I had always satisfied with carelessness and abandon, were no longer my own. I didn't recognize my body. I didn't recognize its desires. The way I moved through the world changed. I became cautious and afraid. Every crosswalk, every staircase, every preservative, every loud noise was marked with a skull and crossbones that only I could see. Friendships withered. Activities that I had thoughtlessly filled my days with began to seem impossible and terrifying. People stopped seeing me. They only saw the increasingly convex part of me that was home to someone else. I moved through the world like a ghost. I couldn't find myself in all of the appointments and vitamins and clothes that no longer even pretended to fit. I couldn't find myself in all of the late night fears. In the end, lying on a bed covered in blood and mucus and sweat, the feeling that my life was over calcified into a small stone of certainty. I was gone, the person I knew as myself was dead. And then he came, rising up out of this horror of fluid and panic. This little stranger, the most alive thing I had ever seen, and I began to see that small dead stone as something else. It wasn't me that had died over these long months. It was a part of me, but not me. It was my selfishness, my conceit. The wheat had been separated from the chaff and washed away like the vernix from the creases of his tiny eyes. Real Battle Talk - Andrei Arlovski Andrei Arlovski at the first Affliction event, featured in Real Battle Talk magazine, Japanese publication. See also: how to make ringtones for razr v3 downloadable midi ringtones free ringtones no charge or subscription bell mobility canada ringtone superjail theme ringtone ringtones for sidekick 08 mallard duck ringtones bird walk ringtones |